almost lovers...

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot walk the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

eureka!! what an idea sir ji! :)

why cant there be condoms for pen drives?! who gave them the divine right to go fucking all the computers and infecting them?!
okay, i know there is something called as an anti virus and u should perform the virus scan before opening any pen drive, but, there are some viruses who are like deadly. even these virus scans cant control them from infecting your computer.

and, for the worst, i have got my self into this situation. after carefully protecting my lappy for more than two years now, i finally gave way to this deadly virus who's taking over control on my lappy. my poor baeby!

i feel like an irresponsible, looser parent who never told her child to use protection! but, then i guess its not a good idea. as in, the whole job of a condom is to not to let the transfer happen, whereas, that is exactly why we made pen drives.

but, then i find my self thinking that the real job of a condom is to give you what you want without giving you what you don't. that's the whole art of it!
so, can't we make condoms for these cocky pen drives which can help us transfer the data without transferring the infection?! i really wish there is some way!

welcome! my blue baby :)

okay... so, finally i bought my first ever ipod last week as my advanced birthday gift. the color i wanted was baby purple which i had first seen almost six months back. and that became my #1 on my 'must have' list. i literally lusted for it. but as luck would have it, i did not get that color. it was depressing. so, i ended up buying a bright blue. it looks 'jhintak.' my purple looked far more elegant. but its alright, m happy enough to own one.

but the problem is i still have to get over its charm. its been almost a week, and i would have just sent a few hours without my blue baby in this entire week! i am like addicted to it. i knew this would happen. its my nature. i get attracted to things very fast but, their charm wears off even faster! but in this case it hasen't happened yet and what scares me is that i dont even see that coming. i sleep with it plugged in my ears, i go to the loo with it, brush my teeth with my blue baby still plugged in. except when i have to take a shower and and like some two hours in the entire day, m listening to it.

hey, it just struck me, maybe this is the reason i dont feel like takin a shower in this sticky wether also!
i miss onto conversations with my freinds. i dont hear my phone ringing, and even when sometimes i do, i dont take calls if m listning to one of my faves which happens to be my entire playlist. (almost)

its a good feeling to be in my music world all the time as it is the only other important thing i need to survive in this world. but then, its crazzy! my mind always stays preoccupied with songs. my roomie told me the other day that i was humming even when i was sleeping.. could that be possible! i dont have a clue! but, i surely need to cut down this mania or ill grow completely insane!

a dream that i hope will come true :)

i want to make a new resolution.

my friends and people who know me tell me that how nice i am to them or how helping i am or whatever. surely, it is good to hear all good things about yourself, especially when the compliments come without any efforts made!

but, somewhere, i know they are not completely true. there are people whom i completely dislike. and i end up being bluntly rude to them, every time. and then i regret. because i want to be somebody who is able of unconditional acceptance. i have a long way to go for that, but, m sure i am capable of it. the dream i have, for that, there is no place for any sort of hatred. spreading love, laughter and happiness satisfies me. makes me content. gives me my peace of mind.

so all i want to do is promise myself that i'll give up all the grudges, hatred, pain i hold against a lot of people and start fresh.

love, does change your life. and slowly, i am realizing this. if we just try spreading love through all its forms, this world be a lot more beautiful.

this is just a personal feeling:
it is a great feeling to know that you are loved, that a heart cares for you, that someone's thinking of you. its beautiful. it makes you feel on top of the world, makes you happy, gives you an assurance that you are never alone.
to earn someone's true love is the greatest treasure one can ever have.

powerpuff gays!

this little incident that happened a couple of days back made me aware of the 'gay' power. i was at a food court with a girl friend, a guy friend and a gay friend of mine, when this guy came up to us and asked to join us. my guy and gay friends had gone to order some food. and we simply said yes, knowing that he'll have to move once are other friends were back. we thought it'll be some fun! but the guy was no fun. he turned out to be pretty cheap and when we asked him to leave he wouldn't. so, i sent a text to my guy friend telling him about this guy and asking him to get back. he was their in no time and asked the guy to getup and leave. the guy refused and said if we have a problem we should leave. i got up to leave but my other girl friend found 'our leaving' pretty insulting and refused to leave. so it was time for some action. i am a very peaceful person and all this was scaring me. and right then, my gay friend stepped in with 'that' smile on his face, bent over the table to get to that guy's level, placed his index finger of his right hand on his chest and said 'i've started going to the gym to build up my stamina... can i please have your number!' all of us were like WTF???!!!!
and my gay friend looked so damn serious... i still cant stop laughing when i imagine that other guy's reaction! he appeared to be so puzzled, he just quietly got up and left without a word!
so, now that is the power gay have over guys.

and this was not the first time my gay friend got us out of this kind of a situation so effortlessly. and i have to tell you this other incident. this happend long back. it was at our post annual fashion show party. when almost our whole college was at this disc. again we were the same group dancing at the party. me and my other girl friend get really mad when we are dancing together. we really do get crazy. so we were busy doing our sexy-crazy dance moves when we unitedly decided (at the same moment) to dance with a senior of ours. both of us thought he looked hot! so we slowly danced our way to where he was and then started 'our' dance. we knew it would attaract him :) and he soon joined us. and after we got him all worked up we wanted to leave which was not happening. he woudn't let us leave. and we didnt want to continue with him any further. then my friend said something in my senior's ear and left and left me wondering! and then she got back with this gay friend of mine who joined us in our dance. he surely was having a great time wit our senior but i dont think that our senior was enjoying. he got so pissed with our gay friend that he just couldn't take it anymore. and it was soooo much fun to hold him back to dance with all of us whe all he wanted to do was to run away!!

so, all the girls who have gay friends are really really lucky! value your gift! :D :D

my 2008: an over view

so, finally we arrive at the last day of 2008. another year has gone by. and another new year is just here.
and there are things which i will never forget about this year. i had my share of noble deeds, stupid actions, laughter, depression, blessings, love and etc.

so, firstly, the best things that happened to me this year:

1. i found him. and m really happy about this. so, definitely this has to be the #1 that makes this year so damn special for me! he had given my life a new dimension and added a whole new meaning to my existence. :D

2. my cousins marriage. it was a long awaited marriage in the family. and i haven't attended a wedding of a really close one since i was 4. so, the whole experience made it really exciting for me! :)

3. the kerala trip. this was the time of the year. i have never been on much of school trips. and this was a long college trip in gods own place so it had to be fun. it was just great. i love nature.

4. another trip. i cant give the details but it was definitely a great one because somebody made it special :) and the scenic beauty was simply amazing.

5. @ BT i lost something very important to me :P

now, turn for the worst things that happened to me this year:

1. even after four months of the disaster i still feel the same pain. i still cant come to terms with the fact that just how could i be so stupid to have done something like this?! okay, no more suspense. the biggest thing i repent doing this year is getting my hair permed. yes, i said tata to my straight hair which i thought were not good anyway. and got a permanent perm done. and i have been hating it since then. and this is one mistake that i'll have to carry in the next year too! how i wish there was a way to get rid of it! :'(



before now :(

2. i have been dying for an ipod and everytime i asked my parents to buy they give me a straight no for an answer. and the excuse they give me is that they are aware of my addiction to music and without they being with me they can imagine it plugged in my ears 24x7. which is no reason at al!

3. my near-drowning experience. boy, it was an experience of a life time. i seriously thought that was my end. although my angel was with me but that didn't help. thanks to that somebody who at the last moment owned u to be my savior angel! anyways, moral of the story for me : i fear death( i used to think opposite to it) at least by drowning.

4. 11th December. from the night of this day to the the night of 12th December. two most horrible days of this year. it was just another discussion. but it spoke volumes to me. and hurt me.

anyway, i guess that is all for my really bad experiences this year. and i have definitely learnt a lot from them which i guess is more important.

hope this another new year is a bundle of happy surprises and loads of love and affection for all of us :)

my 2009 resolution: try to focus on people who are important to me than a lot others. and definitely, i should stop caring..not necesserily actually. i should just care a little less about the world. ;)

so whats urs??!

wish u all a very very happy new year :D party safe!

soulmates :)

the other day i was reading an article that got me thinking that do soulmates really exist?just how do you know that he/she is the perfect one for you?!

some say its just one look that decides it all and some say its a matter of the time involved.

i personally think that soulmates do exist. maybe its just not one look that takes it all to decide. there has to be more to it. more than the physical attraction, to know who they are underneath.

we all need somebody to spend our lives with, to raise a family. as most of us generally do. but i was surprised to know that a whole lot of couple who are together for like years still think they are not with their soulmates!

who exactly is a soulmate? maybe, somebody who understands you like completely. somebody who understands your needs and respond to them in time. somebody whom you can trust when you just can't trust anyone around you. somebody you know will be there for you know matter what. somebody in whose eyes you can see the passion for yourself. somebody who'll still say whats the matter?! when u try to say u're fine. somebody who'll like you and appreciate you just the way you are.

i personally feel that if you find that somebody, if you are lucky enough to figure out who he is, it dosen't really matter that you get to spend your whole life with him or not. your'e really blessed if you get to. but even if you don't, nothing to be sad about. you would still know there's a true friend out there for you when you need him.

but, now another question has popped in my mind! is it necessary for sombody whom you think of as your soulmate to think in the same way for you? i would like to say no. but doesn't 'soulmate' stand as a mutual term?!