So Much So

Although my heart says this is different. Although I have never felt it hit so strong. 

Although there is a feeling guiding me. 

Although I know this is it. 

Still a fear engulfs me. 

Still a worry seeps through in. 

Still a darkness unseen is hovering above

Still a voice a telling me, be careful! 

To give in to the fear 

Or to stand tall on what I feel 

This situation is feeding onto me. 

The strength to fight this fear 

And the strength to stand my ground 

Is asking my soul to be hollow 

And all the feelings to go numb. 

Will it really lead to a new beginning by the time this all ends?!