ive been an idiot all along. just scared too loose whatever i have. and keep dreaming. i need to ground myself. everything happens on a given specific time. you cant just fly in to time. and i have to learn that. seriously. need to spent a hell lot of time with myself to understand and value what i have. and i am just thankful that i have come to my senses before it is too late. i hope it is not. and i look forward to a better newer fresher me.